I know I said I was done...but I would like to end this on a very happy note:

Course Title Grade
PEL1121 - 03 GOLF S
SSE3321 - 01 TEACHING HISTORY A
SSE4362 - 01 FNDMNTL TEACH SOC ST A
SSE4364 - 01 SKILL DEV. SOC. STUD A
SSE4664 - 01 INQUR TEACH SOC STUD A
SSE4940 - 01 FIELD STUDY SS S

FSU: 3.22
Term: 4.00

CONGRATULATIONS! YOU ARE ON THE DEAN'S LIST.

It's about damn time!!!!!

The journal has been a great way for me to keep a detailed update of my college life, but since that is over, I think it's time that the journal is retired.


If you need to get ahold of me, my screen name is iweldy, and my email i lweldygphib@yahoo.com.

I've grown up out of the online world, I've just grown up in general.


So long, kids.

today has probably been the saddest day in my entire life.

noone should ever be allowed to graduate. ever.

and why did blakes girlfriend find it necessary to come up to me to say 'omg hey! how are you?? you look soooo pretty tonight"

fuck you!!!

60 random questions you must answer HONESTLY...

1. Who is the last person you held hands with?
Brian. He's bald now.

2. If you were sent off to war would you survive?
Absolutely not.

3. Do you sleep with the TV on?
::cries:: i miss cable!!!

4. Have you ever drank milk straight out of the carton?
I don't think I ever have, only because I know my brother did and thats gross if I put my mouth on it after his slobbery ass.

5. Have you ever won a spelling bee?
5th grade. The kid lost with the word 'dinosaur'.

6. Do you like somebody right now?
I do. He's bald.

7. Are you a fast typer?
Quite.

10. Who can you always count on?
A few select friends, and always my family.

11. Whens the last time you chose a bath over a shower?
::cries:: i miss having a bath!

12. Have you ever thought about running away?
When I was crazy and gothy in 8th grade, I walked right out the front door and said "I'm running away". I tried to go to Tabithas, but when I got to the intersection of Wiles and Ridge, I got scared and went home, walked through the front door and heard my Dad say "Running away is over rated."

13. Are you drinking anything right now?
Diet Dr. Pepper

14. Do you think you're attractive?
I don't think I'm unattractive by any means.

17. What do you want for Christmas?
A trip to Europe or a new digital camera.

18. Do you know the muffin man?
THE MUFFIN MAN?! the MUFFIN MAN. (oh, shrek.) (Yes.)

19. Do you talk in your sleep?
I say weird shit in my sleep, if you hear it, you're lucky.

20. Who was the last person you kissed?
He's bald.

21. Have you ever flown a kite?
I think so?

22. When was the last time that you went swimming and where?
::thinks::
::thinks hard::
Oh, this isn't that hard. The pool last week with Chris and Bekah.

23. Do you consider yourself successful?
Yes.

24. How many people are on your contact list of your cell phone?
At least 60? How many do I use? 10.

25. Have you ever asked for a horse?
No.

26. Plans for tomorrow?
Teaching 8th grade, work, gym, sleep.

27. What's your middle name and why?
Marie. Because my mother's middle name Mary didn't sound good after Lindsay.

28. Missing someone right now?
I miss la familia.

29. When was the last time you told some one you love them?
Momma, about 15 minutes ago on the phone.

30. What was the last sport you played?
kickball!

31. How do you feel today?
sweaty and cranky until I leave work.

32. Are you black?
I SAY YOU.

33. Do you wish your boyfriend/girlfriend was someone else?
No

34. What are you looking forward to?
6:00 so I can leave this fucking box I call 'work'. And spaghetti for dinner :)

35. Have you ever crawled through a window?
Yeah.

37. Have you ever eaten dog food?
Dog Jerky.

38. Can you handle the truth?
Depends on who is tellinig the truth.

39. Do you like green eggs and ham?
Yes I do, Sam I am.

40. What 3 things do you always bring with you to places?
Cell phone, hair rubberbands, and tissues.

41. Any cool scars?
Forehead from diving off bunkbeds. Toe from tumor removal surgery.

42. Do you like or have a crush on someone?
Yea?

43. Who Cares?
Not me.

44. What do you do when no one is watching?
Pick my nose and sing.

45. How often do you talk on the phone?
Not too much. I'm not that much of a phone person.

47. Is there something you want that you can't have?
Oh yeah.

48. Three things about the opposite sex that you first notice?
Eyes, hands, and humor.

49. Who are you thinking about right now?
The cute guy who just came up to my window and his comment about liking my Polo shirt.

50. Who did you last hug?
Baldy.

52. Where is your phone?
Next to the Dewar's.

53. What was the last thing you ate?
A bagel sandwich.

54. What's your favorite color?
navy/green/pink all equally.

55. Last movie you watched?
EUROTRIP!
My baby takes the morning train, he works from 9 till 5 and then he takes another home again to find...me...watching the Manchester United Football team! The greatest team in the world, whoohoo!!

56. What song do you currently hear?
I'm whistling Yankee Doodle.

57. What do you want?
I want to know where is #58. Good question, Sara.

59. What t.v. show are you watching?
::cries::

60. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Mom, I needed her credit card number so I could refil my perscription.



That did not take nearly enough time.
I NEED TO MOVE OUT OF THE SORORITY HOUSE RIGHT NOW
RIGHT NOW
RIGHT NOW
RIGHT NOW!!!!

3 weeks left of school. Last week of field work. Friday is going to suck because I have to teach about the Trail of Tears allll day. And then say goodbye to my little monsters. Oh, how I love/hate/love them.

Question: Why is everyone so boring!?

Two of my best friends are going through difficult times in their relationships, and both have come to me for advice. I give them what I think is good advice, but they don't take it and end up coming back to me, asking me again. It hurts to see them cry, it truly hurts me to see my friends hurting so badly, but it just gets to the point where I don't know what else to say and I'm tired of saying the same thing. I feel selfish saying that, but there's only so much I can say, it's all them in the end.

And it's also frustrating. When I had these issues after breaking up with Blake, I didn't want to talk to anyone. I didn't like putting myself out there, making myself vulnerable for everyone to see. Maybe at that point I didn't feel like there was anyone I could trust with my vulnerablility. I am truly happy that I have gotten much closer with Lauren, Bekah and Jana. It's nice to have girl friends you can laugh with and share clothes with and not worry that they'll talk shit about you with their other friends, they are always good for a fantastic laugh, there's no doubt about that.

So, I guess I'll be staying in Tallahassee for the summer, working back at Booth. I'll be living with Tara in Alicia's room, so needless to say I am REALLY excited to have my own room and cable. And I'll be walking distance to Brian's house :)

Continue vent...
I hate group projects, because I don't trust my grade in the hands of other people. I don't feel like typing out the whole thing, but basically one of my group members didn't show up for our presentation this morning and it ended up being terrible, and in my other class, a group project was supposed to be due today but due to peoples confusion with the assignment, it was pushed back to Tuesday. NEITHER of my group members showed up. If it was still due today, I would have had only my portion of the project to turn in, and I would have been PISSED. I hate relying on other people, I would so much rather do everything by myself. :)

I'm diggin the new Silverchair song.

Time to go read my 8th grade novel :)

This song reminds me of Daniel. Something about the way the singer sings it, just makes me think about him.

I wonder how he's doing and what he's been up to the past few years?

I'm back from Boston, obviously. I had an amazing time, other than the fact that it was -10* there most of the time. And that the drastic weather change has seriously damaged my sinuses causing them to bleed out my nose and give me a crazy tooth ache.

My 8th graders were smart asses today, made me a little mad. And then I came to work where I am currently, making money to sit online and listen to Ben Folds. So, can't complain too much. Yet I have tons of errands to run and I feel as if I am wasting my time here. Plus I'm tired.

Good news...Pearl Jam is headlining Lollapalooza this year. Guess where I'll be August 3-4th? That's right. Finally, its about damn time! I would really love to see Ben Folds as well. Really bad. He's pretty much amazing and a musical genius.

I drank 3 beers and got drunk last night. What is wrong with me!? I've lost everything I worked so hard for. It's okay though, because Saturday is the big day. The day I've been waiting for, for quite some time now. St. Pats is definitely the best of all holidays.

I have also decided that this year, living in the sorority house, has been my most 'unfun' year. Each other year in college has been SO much more fun, not counting classes and work or what have you. As in, people who I live with plus the fun factor. Which kind of sucks, seeing that it is my last year. Oh well, the funs gotta end some time. With that being said, heres to me being a hell of a lot more social in my last 7 weeks of college.

So, what is new?
I am going to Boston tomorrow. I am p-u-m-p-e-d! The motherland of American History! The home of my great nation! The home of great beer, shopping, and cold weather. Yes, on Tuesday it is supposed to be 22* and possibly snowing. :)

Approximately 56 days left in Tallahassee, for good. It's makin me sad, but I know it's time to move on to bigger and better things! Like...living with my parents. Woo-woo.

I want to know who still reads this thing, and what they are up to. So, comment please, and let me know how you're doing. I would love to hear how everyone is.

On that note, see you after Boston :)

Once again, 8 months later...
Two Names You Go By:
1. Weldy
2. poopie

Two Things You Are Wearing Right Now:
1. my work polo
2. laurens awesome navy blue swishy jacket

Two Things You Want in a Relationship:
1. comfort
2. poop jokes

Two Things You Want Really Badly:
1. knowing where i'm going
2. freedom and quiet time

Two pets you had/have:
1. skeletor
2. harley and kaylie (they come as a package)

Two Favorite Sports to play:
1. football
2. racquetball

Two people who will fill this out:
1. i dont
2. really care


Two things you did last night:
1. made homemade mac and cheese
2. spontaneously got drunk by doing a dizzy dragon to the llama song and playing beer pong then passing out after listening to the llama song, again

Two Favorite Places to eat:
1. Japanese steakhouse
2. jimmy johns

Two people that live in your house:
1. um, half of my sorority
2. see number 1

Two things you like about yourself:
1. my eyes
2. my sometimes awful humor

Two things you ate today:
1. burger king breakfast
2. jimmy johns

Two people you Last Talked To:
1. brian
2. momma

Two Things You're doing tomorrow:
1. Oh, not much...just DRIVING TO BOSTON.
2. and stopping in Virginia.

Two things that make you laugh:
1. THE LLAMA SONG
2. and charlie the unicorn.

Two things that gross you out:
1. the sorority house bathrooms
2. a really dirty kitchen

Two holidays you like the most:
1. halloween
2. christmas

i quit

i hear 847 calling my name

god, will you let me know when i can believe someone?
i thought honesty was the best policy. ive been trying to live by that.
is he being real? or drunk?

$308,192.78.
DM 2007.

What an amazing time. I'm so proud of everyone.
I am so sad that this is my last year participating in Dance Marathon. It is so stressful and takes up a lot of time and is tough to get through, but it is so worth it.
The part that killed me, during closing ceremonies...
Kayla, 7 year old miracle child, at the microphone: "Thank you so much dancers, for standing on your feet for 32 hours, you saved my life."

This has also realized that this semester is full of lasts. And it's making me really sad.
I don't want to think in lasts. But it's my last February here. It's my last 7th week of school. It's my last spring break. It's my last Dance Marathon. Lot's of lasts.

Last night I went with Brian and his Dad to see Jimmy Buffett....probably the best day of the semester thus far. We tailgated with a bunch of the ladies, drank from about 3 until the show which started at 8, and then proceeded to drink Land Shark Lager while watching the ever entertaining JBuff.

What have I been up to lately?? Lots and lots of work. I feel like I am not so fun anymore, but after Dance Marathon is over this weekend, I will have a small portion of my life back :)

The weather has been absolutely beautiful. About 60* right now and gorgeously sunny, not a cloud in the sky. Days like these make me enjoy Florida as I sit back and laugh at my family who is 'enjoying' the warm spell that cast 20* on them today. Apparently it has been below zero there all week, so I laugh.

But...looks like I am applying to one masters program. DePaul. I have a chance, spoke with the dean of admissions for the History program and she said she looks forward to seeing my application. Dad doesn't think I will be happy at all living in South Florida, especially by myself. I think I agree. So it looks like I'll be heading up to Chicago ini January? We'll see how that goes. I would really like my life to go in that direction.

I'm doing well, I am happy, I am enjoying my last semester here, it's good.

The winning streak is over, back to being ordinary.

Rex, I admit it. I am terribly unhappy with your performance last night. I expect to see MUCH better out of you next year. But hey! Let's celebrate ONE FULL SEASON of Rex not getting injured! That's a great thing!

I was a hot sloppy mess last night. I need to not put so much heart into Bears games, or else I do awful things when they lose. And boy, did they lose.

I'm not drinking until Thursday. My liver hurts. I said I wasn't going to drink this weekend until the Bears game, but I gave into peer pressure and free drinks.

Anyway, I'm not going to golf today because I need to give my hand a rest. So I need to get LOTS of homework done.

Hey!
I am tired of this town and it's drama and bullshit!
Hey!
I can't wait to move to South Florida to do my internship!
Hey!
When that is done, I can't wait to move back to Illinois to be AS FAR AWAY AS POSSIBLE.
Hey.

Off to teach 8th grade, like a big girl who has a life.

school, work, golf, teach, dance marathon
repeat
school, work, golf, teach, dance marathon
repeat
school, work, golf, teach, dance marathon

you get the point.

Well, the beginning of my birthday weekend celebration didn't go as well as I hoped.

Only a few people came out, thank you so much to Chris, Bekah, Sara, Ryan, Jana and Kaitlin, so much. It means a lot to me, especially that some of you wore your Bears jerseys out to Potbellies and Bulls.

Potbellies was fun, lots of drinks were had. Time to go to Bullwinkles. Standing in line, getting a Happy Birthday sticker from the bouncer and out walks Blake holding Kate's hand. Fine. I was drunk and got pissed off, whatever. Proceed inside, see Tim, Nelson, Annalise, and eventually Brandon. I chit chat with Brandon for a bit, and find out that one of Brandon's friends who I hung out with a bunch (and people tried to set us up because his nickname was "Shorty") had killed himself last week. Noone knows why. I got really really sad. I broke down at Bulls and Bekah was a saint and drove me home and I bodyslammed the DM board and fell to the ground and just kinda drunk cried for a while. I somehow made it up to my room and started throwing things, and I just needed to get out of here. So I did.

Mom called me this morning to sing Happy Birthday, and to tell me that Aunt Kathy and little Ronnie were in a car accident this morning. Ronnie was in his carseat and is fine, but Aunt Kathy is in the hospital, they think the airbag crushed her face pretty bad.

I am going to Gainesville soon. People told me they were coming up for it, but aren't. But I'll have fun.
I need to go to the mall.

Oh, birthdays.

Bear Down, Chicago Bears,
Make every play clear the way to victory!
Bear Down, Chicago Bears,
Put up a fight with a might so fearlessly!

We'll never forget the way you thrilled the nation,
With your T formation!

Bear Down, Chicago Bears,
And let them know why you're wearing the crown.
You're the pride and joy of all Illinois,
Chicago Bears, Bear Down!



CHICAGO BEARS
NFC CHAMPS
SUPERBOWL BOUND!!!!

(Anyone want to take me to the Super Bowl?!?!)

Well, Blake and I broke up. Seems like it was a mutual thing, which I guess made it a bit easier. I haven't cried about it yet because I feel like I don't really have any emotions right now. It will hit me tonight or tomorrow at work.
It's weird. It might have been the best or the worst decision of my life. I still love him, but we just couldn't be together anymore. We had a good run, but he thought it wasn't going to go far into the future and I was just unhappy.

So, now I need to find a date to hayride and something to do for Spring Break. Maybe I'll fly home and just get some good alone time with my dogs, or I'll go down to south florida to find somewhere to live in August. I'll have to find somewhere to stay though.

I have to work at 8 AM tomorrow. So I am going to sleep now.
Goodnight.

I really don't like being yelled at for no reason or being hung up on.

This semester (class wise) seems like it will be good. It's definitely going to be tough, lots and lots of work, but I know in the back of my head that it will be worth it. It will be worth sacrificing a lot of my social life of my last semester in college, only because I know that one day I will have a good job that will support me. I don't need anyone else to support me, I will be able to do it on my own.

I can do everything for myself on my own.
I think.

I am getting a set of golf clubs for my birthday!!!

Yaaaaay!!!

where did all of my confidence go? out the window. day one of classes and im pretty close to an anxiety attack. teaching is not what i thought it would be. it is not as easy as i thought it would be. i do not know as much as i thought i did. can i do this?

i hate people who can go through life without ever experiencing hard work.